Friday, October 09, 2009

This is how I feel pretty much all the time:
I'm exhausted yet I sleep a lot! I go to bed around 10pm and get up at 7am, that's 9 hours and I thought I was getting good quality sleep but obviously not. I'm not sure what's going on but I'm struggling to keep my head off the desk at work and I almost fell asleep at the soccer game yesterday and forgot to stop the clock when the ref signaled for it. It's very frustrating because I feel like I don't have enough energy to exercise or do my 3day training. I'm scheduled for a long walk this weekend but I don't know where I'm going to get the energy to do it. I'm just so tired. On Tuesday I walked on the treadmill for about 90 minutes and then I couldn't get out of bed on Wednesday. I thought exercise was supposed to give you more energy not sap you of all energy? Anyway, I'm investigating some dietary changes that I might be able to make that could help so we'll see. Hopefully it's just a matter of adding more iron or protein into my diet.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Today we got some very good news! My biopsy results came back negative - I do not have Thyroid cancer and do not need surgery!! Such great news and truly an answer to prayer.

We also met with one of the office people at our apartment complex and we can move into a one bedroom next month and save about $400 a month in rent! Fabulous. So, my list of stressors has shrunk down to one thing: Dissertation. Ugh, it feels like a bad word right now. Here is a quote about procrastination found on www.ronisweigh.com that I found very appropriate:

“Don’t think. Thinking is the enemy of creativity. It’s self-conscious, and anything self-conscious is lousy. You can’t try to do things. You simply must do things.” -Ray Bradbury

Basically, I think too much (so does Roni of ronisweigh.com). I am having trouble with my dissertation because there is a part of me that thinks I can't do it. Well, I'm going to prove that piece of me wrong!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

"You’ve come too far in life to take orders from a cookie!" ~Stephen Gullo

I love it, I stole it from www.ronisweigh.com in Roni's archives. I love Roni and the toddler! Anyway, I thought this was hilarious because sometimes I do take orders from a cookie (or ice cream), I let them tell me when to eat and what to eat rather than making my own decisions. I mean, heck, I am about a month from a PhD and one little cookie gives me orders. LOL.

On a more serious note, today I had my "fine needle aspiration" aka biopsy. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, it hurt when they numbed me up but other than that no pain. Right now my neck is a little sore and have a stellar bandaid over the spot where they poked me. I should know in 6 days what the results are and if I'm going to have surgery.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

I have seasonal allergies and apparently, my season has begun. I'm taking medication every day and yet I feel miserable. My allergies usually aren't this bad but this is my first Spring in Southern California. When I lived in Indiana the Fall was the worst because that's when the farmers harvested and the air was full of dust. I'm thinking the smog might be a problem for me now.

Anyway, I feel terrible but I've still been staying on track this week, I've been within my calorie range on Monday and Tuesday and I hit the gym for 90 minutes each day. I am supposed to weigh in today but I'm going to hold off until tomorrow when I'm hopefully feeling a little better.

I've been tracking for 3 weeks and this has probably been my best streak yet, I don't think that I've ever been so committed to getting healthy as I am right now. Now, if only the scale would reflect that commitment!

In thyroid news I have my biopsy next Tuesday and then I'll get the results the following week, the 28th. After that we can get the surgery scheduled and figure out what the next steps are. I'll be happy when all of this is settled and it's off my mind.

Friday, April 10, 2009

So, this afternoon I have a consultation with a general surgeon to decide what to do about the nodule on my thyroid. I thought that everything was fine and that I wasn't worried so I made the appointment at a time when I knew my husband couldn't be there rather than wait until next week. Well, I'm sitting here and all I want to do is eat and eat and then I realized I was also biting my fingernails. Something is wrong, I only bite them when I'm really stressed or worried. So, I started to really think about it and I am worried and anxious. I have no idea what the appointment will be like, I don't even know this doctor! Of course I have reason to be stressed. No wonder I want to eat the whole bag of chocolate chips.

So, anyway, I'm writing this hoping that it will help my nerves and ease my mind. Then, I'm going to grab a nail file and take care of my fingernails! I'll post another blog once I get back from the Dr's.

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

The doctor finally got my ultrasound results back from the radiologist and now I have to go to a surgeon to see if I need to have a biopsy. I'm just going to expect a biopsy to see what the heck it is. Friday is the consultation with the surgeon so we'll see, I'm just glad that we're moving on to the next step in diagnosing the problem.